Discouraged

Life has been a roller coaster recently. Part of me just wants to pretend that everything is fine, but I feel down.

It has been a rough adjustment to middle school, and I am exhausted from pushing Robbie. He is not doing his homework independently at all! I have been reading the book Families Where Grace Is In Place. It has been great! Very challenging. I realize that I have been trying to hard to change or control him. I don't want him to fail, but the more I take responsibility to make him succeed, the less he is doing for himself. So I have realized that I must back off, and start allowing him to fail for his choices. It is hard, but I know that it will mean success for him in the long run as he learns to manage his own time and make decisions and live with the consequences of those decisions.

We are also praying about whether or not God would have us to move back overseas. It is a huge decision, and I really need to see God's hand orchestrating the steps of such a choice. It is not easy to live in limbo waiting to see how God is going to direct us. I try to not think of the what ifs. Some one gave me the following quote, and I think it is really appropriate.
Certainty is the mark of the common-sense life;
Gracious uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual life.
To be certain of God means that we are uncertain in all our ways,
We do not know what a day will bring forth.
Oswald Chambers